I Saw a Shaman Today
I woke up today with the realization that I am fighting for my life, everyday. My back is against the fence and I'm being attacked by crazy and rabid people. I am trying to fight off these motherfuckers like Bruce Lee or Jean-Claude Vadamme - obviously the Blood Sport Jean-Claude, but I am finally making small progress to win this battle some call life.
It's HARD work to be happy and to achieve your dreams. On one hand I am so blessed to have the opportunity to pursue it and on the other hand I am fearful we're not going to make it. My ultimate high is when someone tells any of The Scott Emo Show family members how much they like the show, the cause and the movement.
I don't know why I can't feel that way everyday, but then I got GREAT advice from a Shaman (thanks to Jenn S. for the introduction). Shamanism (pron.: /ˈʃɑːmən/ shah-mən or /ˈʃeɪmən/ shay-mən) is a practice that involves a practitioner reaching altered states of consciousness in order to encounter and interact with the spirit world. A shaman is a person regarded as having access to, and influence in, the world of benevolent and malevolent spirits, who typically enters into atrance state during a ritual, and practices divination and healing.
He told me that I need to live everyday in The Scott Emo Show. Everyday needs to be lived the same way I feel after we produce a killer LIVE taping. That's a deep fucking statement. I get it and I don't at the same time. It's the best drug I've ever taken and it's free, meaningful, and all-natural. How do I translate that feeling to my everyday life?
No idea is the answer. I need to search for it, connect with people that support the cause, hug a tree, pray, talk to a rock on the beach, who knows, but I'll get there.