What a day. I lost something that was in my control and I struggled with finding a channel to release this negative energy I was harboring. Man, what a day. I felt like I let down my people. Really through off my entire being, my entire stability.
My batting average was strong on locking in interviews and making them actually happen, but missing this one feels like a major disappointment. Can the interview still happen? Of course, but I don't like tripping when I'm running to first base. We are just getting started, but I got slapped in the face so hard today by reality that it stung. Like when Tyson used to just knock his opponents head off.
Got home, realized that today sucked, talked to my Mrs. and had an open and honest conversation about the reality of this situation and our life, like we have a KID coming. Damn. No money coming in. Damn. But, a little love and support can take a man a long way. Also, playing Holy Grail on repeat doesn't hurt either.
Here's the point: I needed this. Time to get it focused. Organized better. Content driven and get someone else to help with the details, that was a slip up, but that's it. Now, it's over and now it's a learning lesson and we will go to Detroit on July 31 to get our interview with Sean. Like Frank Ocean said: Fuck it. And like Hov said: "Don't be good, be great."